Yakhana's Poetry

[Padawan Yakhana Skie]

Well guys. You cracked me open. I'll be posting my poetry. One poem every day. So I guess in about 200 days i'll have every one of them posted! Though If I feel unlazy i'll post more.

WARNING
Some of my poetry is graphic.
Some contains cutting, suicide, torture, and death
If that is too much for you then do not read it.
You have been warned!

Now I present to you my first poem.

Petals

Theres only five petals left on the rose
Wilted away by so many tears
When all fall soon I will die
Taken my life in my own hands
First petal falls onto the floor
My tears cascade down my face
Knowing I always made myself cry
But you were never there to help
The one who was begging to live
Second petal falls onto the floor
My world is shrouded in black
I saw all the signs but never doing
Anything to get her away from you
Too blind to see anything again
Third petal falls onto the floor
Tiredness consumes my body
Not even moving to see your face
Can't even lift myself up now
To get away from the slow death
Fourth petal falls onto the floor
Insanity claims my very mind
Laughing in the illusions of lies
Since you never spoke the truth
Leaving me all alone again
As I watch my wilted rose
The final petal falls to the floor
Blade in hand cant be happier
Crimson drips onto the petals
As I fall into the eternal dark
Not even you could save me
Its my own fault and the blame
For you never took my life
I did

[Morgana Le Fay]

Excellent write, Yakhana. I love the imagry of the rose - kinda reminds me of Beauty and the Beast gone sour. It's lusciously dark.... but very sad. I hope nothing like the unrequited love this expresses has happened to you.
Verdict: Luscious

[Padawan Yakhana Skie]

Thank you. Sad to say, most of my poetry is based on inner feelings.

And now, my second poem for you guys.

Burnt Angel

Left alone to rot and decay
My sweetest only suicide
Body dissolving over the ages
Soul flies free into Hell
Fire licking up the blood
Dripping slowly from the wounds
Leave me be i deserve all this
For the pain i burdened you with
Tears turn to air in the heat
Hells not all that wonderful
Wings burning forever and again
Blackened the feathers disappear
Turned to ash by everlasting fire
Nothing but bone is showing
Freedom too far way no escape
Fall to my knees and begin to beg
The forgiveness out of reach
Pray to leave this horrid place
No answer seeks me out
But a single angels comes to help
Healing my wounds and wings
Together we fly so far away
Safe in each others arms
All but a dream so like reality
Time to finally awake in Hell
Solitude and flames consume me
Crying out and screaming
Never heard by the angel above
All goes black and nothing more
My angel couldnt save me
Too deep down to be heard
All have given up on me

[Padawan Yakhana Skie]

Warning: Vampiric
Depressing (to some)

Vermillion Nights

Clouds shroud out the stars
Street lights flooding up into infinity
Turning grey blobs into floating crimson
Our first night together in the dark
To finally tell you my hidden secret
How you will react I cannot tell yet
Don't call me a monster, a freak
My heart eternally beats for you
To hold you in my pale arms
A lust blood can never cure
Azure eyes staring into yours
If only I could return to humanity
My coffin will lay next to yours
Though that will never happen
Standing through wind and rain
Phases of the moon my only calculation
On how many nights I wait
Just one more eternity to waste
To flashes begin to fade away
Red puffs let the crescant moon glow
Grab your hand to pull you around
Lips spilling my inner secret
Blood streaks from your eyes and mouth
They came to end my own plague
Instead they claimed your soul
Visions becoming my new reality
Droplets of rain pelt down to the ground
Kneeling down beside your cold body
Licking the blood from your beautiful face
Carrying you to the nearest graveyard
Dig your final place in the earth
Wind blows away the crimson clouds
Through the moonlight I watch
Night after agonizing night
Praying to a nonexistant god
For my grave to open up
So I can meet you in a heaven
Vermillion nights last forever
Knowing I can never hold you again

[Padawan Yakhana Skie]

Warning: Vampiric
Low detail

Missing Papers on the Walls

Tonight I'll hold you
My newest prey
Squirm and scream aloud
Nothing can hear you
Nails dig deep into skin
My grip only tightens
Don't fight back now
I'll only kill you slower
You look so beautiful
Panic stricken blue eyes
Watch as you get on your knees
And pray for salvation
Your god won't save you
Nor can anything else
Mine tonight, only
Crimson trickles down
Lick up your human filth
I cannot allow you to live
Corpse growing cold
Dying blood means nothing
Flames sear your skin
Leaving no track of myself
Missing papers align the wall
More appear over the nights
Though you will never find me
Maybe, just maybe you will
Catch me under the moonlight
Gore dripping from my lips
Only to realize the truth
You'll be the next to die

[Padawan Yakhana Skie]

Warning: Abuse

You Should Remember

To keep your mouth shut
Everyday you come home
Ranting and raving
About how your day sucked
Well it's not my fault
So go ahead and take it out
Upon my frail body
Scream and yell at you
That you should release me
Eyes burning with hatred
Too many times you've crossed the line
You should remember
What happens to me
After you hit and abuse me
Smile and laugh at your trying
Now it's time for me to share
Every ounce of pain given
Pointed black nails dig under
Pulling skin apart until red runs
Don't worry darling, I won't kill you
Just teach you a though lesson
Break each finger and toe
Beat until your black and blue
Your lip busts open blood pours down
Black rings around your right eye
Watch as you wither into a corner
Fear claiming your mind
Don't make this woman angry again
Don't abuse this woman
She might do worse next time

No worries guys. I wrote this for only a contest on a site (Allpoetry) This has nothing to do with me at all.

[Padawan Yakhana Skie]

Warning:
Blood
Depression
Self Loathing

To Forgive A Sinner


I fear that I have sinned again
If only I could make things better
Never would I cry once more
While I was walking home I prayed
That you would come out screaming my name
With tears in my eyes I walked the silent path
Back into my black hole of Hell
The thought of losing you scares me
More than death ripping apart my soul
A broken heart, a torn mind
I can’t think of anything else
Knowing that I caused you harm
Not even homicidal thoughts
Of killing the one I was walking with
Even in the most vivid detail
Could bring my thoughts away from you
Dying inside when you handed back
The kitten that means so much to me
Your scent covering the small cougar
Brought silent screams and ripped out hair
No physical pain could cure this hurting
Wanting to die right on the spot
Standing outside the window
I got lucky I didn’t have to see you
Even later I could not bare the pain
To see much more reflect in your eyes
You’re too forgiving towards a sinner
I cannot try to repent the sin
To great of a risk to leave you
Blood is my only salvation to the hurt
To rid myself of this self loathing
Death would have to strip my life
Pouring rain crashing down in turrets
Is this the way for me to repent?
To catch a cold and live in sickness
No, the only way I can learn from this
Bare a mark upon my arm
Red in hue forever remaining
Never to forget what I have done to you
This is my price to pay

[Padawan Yakhana Skie]

Warning: Blood, hate, killing, revenge. Some language. And i'm quoteing my ex on this one.

The Secret Between US

One night you called me a puppet
I let that slide
Another night you call me a I am an idiot
I let that slide too
Now you call me a w-hore
When we aren’t even together
Every night when I came Home
From spending the day with you
Oh how I wished I could kill you
Choke every ounce of life away
I know where you sleep at night
How easy it would be if I snuck in
Slit your throat open and watch
As your green sheets turn brown
Not even your dog wakes up
Sadly the wound was not deep
Your eyes open in the darkness
Gagging sounds come from your throat
Trying to find who the killer is
Turn on your TV room fills with light
Standing there with a grin on my face
And my knife dripping blood
You wanted to make me happy
Well now you dream comes true
When I see you fall over dead
Happiness can be found at last
Having trouble get up to your feet?
To come at me with malice in your eyes
Down to your knees you fall
Gurgles coming forth as a voice
Spreading rumors about me
Is the last thing you should have done
You said your death wish when you did
Now I must reap what I should have taken
Bury the knife deep into your chest
Twisting and turning as you crumple in pain
Slide it down to your stomach
Cutting open anything in its way
Wipe off the blood onto your pillow
Close and lock the door
Your death will be a mystery to all
It’ll just be our secret
Between you and me

[Padawan Yakhana Skie]

Warning: cutting, suicide, sorrow, blood

In My Veins

Dig and scratch away at the skin
Too deep enough that I can't reach
Grit my teeth from the burning pain
I didn't even do this to myself
You left me to deal the consequence
From the actions taken against me
Razorblade slipped in so clean
Only a sliver of skin pulled apart
Making it's way to my beating heart
Thumps growing shallow and softer
So it becomes cold as ice, hard as stone
Silver breaking into thousands of pieces
Flowing through each of my veins
Splitting apart the vessel and skin
While i'm slowly bleeding out to death
Lonliness is my only numbing factor
Taking off the edge of the hurting
Allowing me to someone drift off to slumber
These razorblades in my veins
Chip away at the sanity left in my mind
Waking up from the horrid nightmares
I want them out of my body for good
Knife is in the kitchen, one room away
Take it up in my right hand
Look at the ugly thing looking back
Eyes closed as transparent sadness falls
Open back up to pick the target
Cut away at the pale skin barricades
Keeping me from healing these wounds
Ah, now they begin to spill out
Peice by peice the gather in the pool
Watch as the blades mix with the blood
My sweet release from lonliness
Now I realize it was the blade all along
No longer alive, no longer alone